Dear people who bitch about smokers,

I would like to write this open letter addressed to people who constantly complain about smokers.
What is your fucking issue. Why do you feel the need to constantly whinge and complain about something someone else is putting into their bodies? All smokers know the habit they have is disgusting, it causes cancer, its bad for them, blah blah blah. They've heard it all before. But it's THEIR choice. A completely legal choice which they are well with in their rights to make. I know your main complaint is 'passive smoking' yes, passive smoking can cause cancer, but not if you get a face full of smoke every once in a while walking down the street, your more likely to get sick from all the carbon monoxide coming out of trucks, cars and buses. You don't complain constantly about that. How about the disgustingly over weight people costing tax payers millions a year? Do you follow them into McDonalds and bitch when they eat gross artery clogging food? What about drinkers? Drunks are violent and reckless, they kill people on the roads and fight in the streets, and alcohol is just as bad for you as smoking, none of you complain about that.
I smoke. My partner does not. I never smoke inside, I use an ashtray, a bin if I'm in public, I make an effort to stop my smoke from going into people's faces. I work in child care, I don't smoke in or near my centre, I don't even talk about it in front of the children in my care. I pay taxes, I give to the salvation army red shield appeal, I stand on the train for more needy people. I'm just like every other non smoker, except I've made an informed decision to smoke, as bad as it is for me, it's my choice. It does not make me a shit person. This goes for every other smoker I know. Smoking does not make us shit people, it does not change our personalities. Stop discriminating and picking on smokers and pick on something that is actually damaging society.
Sincerely, all smokers everywhere.

there's no place like home!

Well, hello.
I know i haven't blogged for a while, but i just haven't really has much to say. But i just thought id write today about the comforts of home.
When i was a teenager, i would think about moving out of home and to be honest the idea scared me a little. I never thought id be able to feel as comfortable anywhere else besides my parents house, i mean it was home.
But now I'm a big girl, and I've moved out, and I'm living with my boyfriend. I just went to visit my parents for a few days, and i have to admit, i felt like a guest. It didn't feel like home anymore. I slept on the lounge, because not only does my old bed hurt my back, but my old bedroom is used for storage now. It wasn't uncomfortable, but it wasn't home anymore either. Which is actually kinda sad, In a weird nostalgic kind of way.
I mean don't get me wrong, i love living out of home, and i don't exactly miss living with my parents. I do miss seeing my mum everyday, and being able to have a coffee and a smoke and a chat with her whenever i felt the need.
I guess its just growing up, and i know I'm whinging, and i should be happy that I'm out in the world, out of the nest and all that cliche bullshit parent say to their kids in movies, and in a way i am. Actually more than 'in a way'. 
I guess it was just being back at my mums and it not feeling like home for the first time just triggered this thinking out loud badly written blog. 
Oh well. I guess that's all i have to say for now.
You stay classy.. Planet earth.

Bullies.

I just watched Dr. Phil. (yes i watch Dr.Phil and i love love it) And the episode was about bullies. These people make me sick. I don't understand how you can terrorize another human being so badly that they want to take their own life. What did your victims ever do to you? Be a little different, listen to different music, date someone you like? Or even stick up for some other poor kid you were already terrorizing? How do any of these things constitute you making their teenage lives a living hell? I remember being 13, 14, 15, and being at high school and my parents telling me 'Your teenage years are the best years of your life, enjoy them' It makes me wonder if adults actually remember what it was really like to be a teenager, puberty, dating, making friends, losing friends, school yard dramas, first love, first heart break and so on, and that's without bullying involved. I was bullied in high school, not really badly, but called names, had things written about me in school bathrooms, physically pushed around, its not a nice feeling. People say to you, 'get over it, its not that bad, stick up for yourself, suck it up' etc. But they clearly have no idea what its like to be the target of constant abuse and rumours, people laughing at you and talking about you behind your back. When your a teenager, this is the worst thing in the world. No-one deserves to be treated like that. Ever. It makes you feel like crap, makes you scared to go to school, makes your grades drop, and if you don't have a strong and true group of friends around you it makes you feel isolated and alone. Its not very nice at all. I was one of the lucky ones, I had a loyal group of friends and one best friend who stuck by me and stuck up for me no matter what, and I hate to think about the way I would have turned out, or the way the situation could have gone if I didn't have them. So I thank them. But not everyone is as lucky as I was, some people have nobody their so called 'friends' back away from them, so they don't cop it aswell, so they feel all alone, with no-one to talk to, no-one to help. This is the reason we get young girls and boys taking their own lives, because they feel its the only way out. This. Is. WRONG! Nobody deserves this, what if it was you, your sister, your brother, your friend, your child. How would you react? Bullying should be taken as seriously as physical abuse, it can not only end in suicide, but it scars you for the rest of your life. You become un-trusting of people, you find it hard to make friends, the only thing it gives you that is halfway good is a passionate opinion about this particular subject.

We as a whole community, as a country as human beings, need to do something about this.Otherwise we are going to continue losing young people to suicide. Needless violence and verbal abuse has to be stopped. If you are a friend of someone being bullied, or even if you just see it happening, and you don't do anything about it, you are just as bad as the bully, support the bullied person, become their friend, you and your group of Friends stick up for him/her, report the bully. If you are being bullied, tell your parents, tell a teacher, tell the principal, telling is not tattling when your being bullied, its the right thing to do. And lastly if your a parent who is worried about your childs safety, or think your child may be being bullied, be aware of your childs moods, talk to them, talk to the school, make sure you make that child feel loved and accepted, and if the bullying gets worse or doesn't stop, pull your child out of that school.

If you are Reading this, and you are a bully, or used to be a bully, then you make me sick. Think about how much you hurt the people you were needlessly cruel to. Grow up.

Have you been a victim of bullying? Or been a Bully? Or even been a bystander? Tell me your experience.

when i grow up..

Well, I have now decided, that when i grow up, I want to be a *drum rolls* Primary School Teacher. Yes, I know it's random and out of no where. I've never been able to figure out what I wanted to do with my life. But the other day, I was thinking about careers, (mainly because my job hunt is going so badly) and I randomly thought about being a teacher, and it just felt right, I think I'd be a really good primary school teacher, and so does everyone else I've spoken to about it. I'm good with children, and I always have been. They may annoy the crap outta me sometimes, but I'm always patient with them, come on they're kids. So now I'm really excited to study and start the ball rolling. Only problem is, I have to go to tafe first to get my HSC equivalent, as I was a stupid delinquent teenager and quit school after my year 10 certificate. But I've missed the cut off date for late enrollments for tafe by a week. So I know have to wait till next semester, which doesn't start until February next year. Great. But after I do that, I have to go to uni for 3-4 years to study primary teaching, which I'm actually looking forward to (I know, I'm a nerd). I'm really excited that I've finally figured out a career that makes me excited to start.

In other news, the job hunt is totally sucking right now. I've applied at sooo many places. But no one seems to want to give me a chance. Yeah I know my resume isn't all that shit hot, I don't have much experience, but give me a chance guys. I'll surprise you. And besides, It's not like working in a clothes store is rocket science. Jeez. Hopefully I'll get work soon, I need shoe money haha.

And that's all I have to say for now.
Ciao.x

first time blogger.

So, i've never blogged before, but a few friends told me it might be something i'd enjoy. So here goes. My name is Kaciilee (kay-see-lee) I'm 20 and I live in Sydney Australia. I know im not the most interesting person in the world, but i didnt start this blog to make friends.

My rant today is about books turned into movies. Why? Because im so sick of reading a good book, then  it being made into a movie and being destroyed. Take 'Harry Potter' as example one. The books are amazing, JK Rowling created a brilliant world with with magic and wonder, and put in amazing detail. Then we see the movies. And i wonder if theyre even the same story. The first movie was ok, by far the closest to the books, but its all down hill from there. Anyone whos read the books knows what im talking about. 'Half Blood Prince' just sends it over the edge, i mean, i thought 'Order of the Pheonix' was bad. The movie leaves out important story line parts and invents all new scenes that dont make sense, (the weasleys house being burnt down). And they skipped dumbledores funeral. That pissed me off. The director was quoted saying 'He just didnt think the funeral would go with the theme of the movie'. Its a big scene in the book, Harry breaks up with Ginny and its decided that Ron and Hermione will go on this 'quest' with him. I dont know about the rest of you Harry Potter fans, but to me the movies are a big dissapointment. But then you get the people who haven't read the books, my boyfriend being one of them. Now he loves the movies, especially 'The Half Blood Prince'. Iv'e tried to convince him to read the books but he refuses saying the movies are good enough. These people annoy me. How can you claim to be a fan of Harry Potter just because you like the movies, it almost a completely different story. I'll have more on this after the 7th movies come out. And we'll see if they manage too salvage it.

My second example is 'The Vampire Diaries. Now this became a tv show, and its terrible. The storyline is completely different from the books. The first and most obvious difference is Elena is brunette where in the books she is blonde. Another is Merediths absence, I like Merediths character in the books, shes the level headed one who always knows what to do. Also Bonnie, shes not the naive redhead you love in the books, shes a stubborn and selfish bitch who abandons Elena. This show is literally a completely different story, the only likeness to the books is the character names. Even the place they live is different. Theyre supposed to live in 'Fells Church', but instead its 'Mystic Falls'. Fail. I will admit, that i watched the first season and thats how i know so much. And i might really like the show if i could get past the fact they say its supposed to be an adaption of one of my favourite book series.

Well thats all i have to say for today. I'll blog again soon. In the meantime, I'd love to hear your feedback on my first ever blog.
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